Sitting on this quite peaceful night without someone holding me is quite dreadful, but as life comes and goes, i am trying to learn how to deal with this sad moment that comes by every now and then. Spent the last 4 days with the most amazing man i have in my life! Without him by my side i feel empty and feel the need to hold him again, soon, very soon matter of fact. The new year of 2009 has started, and the new year has been a great start so far, I cannot wait until the second semester starts and that should keep me more busy and my mind can be more occupied at last. My schedule isnt that hectic, but the three days that i do have classes, i am pretty packed and can't plan anything else during those days. I love how all my classes are related somehow to art and thank goodness for no math for a while, that gives me such a big smile on my face just listening to the word ' no math '. I dread math, and it gives me the biggest headaches there are. It's not that i dont understand it, its the part where i dont want to understand it.
I had a really good holiday, and it was awesome seeing snow every single day, it was so beautiful that i wanted and hoped it would be like this in north carolina, but sadly i cant complain much about the weather here, i kinda did miss the whole not snowing and not being too cold part!
Till then i'll enjoy my last day of no-classes and my wonderful break, i will surely update my life later!
xoxo
Sitting in chappaqua, New york, Is so peaceful, Sitting near the fire place, with the Christmas tree lightening like it has fireworks on them, it sparkles, with all the ornaments that make the Christmas tree look like a human with expensive Tiffany jewels. Eating some stuffed mushroom with some Blanc de Noir sipping on the side, and listening to Christmas carols makes this holiday so special! I love how especially this time, i have witnessed a white Christmas since i am in new york, after 4 long years! It was the most spectacular thing even the night when the moon was shining, it didn't seem as dark outside as it should! New years is approaching quite quickly and i still haven't made my new year's resolutions, so i am going to take this time to make those, and hopefully i will stick through all of them..* Since the time i have been back from Atlanta, all i have done is eat, i think it's time i take my health a little bit more seriously than i take it to be. Eating right, exercising and being more active is also an issue with me. * Shopping wisely, Since my mother and father are going to be leaving soon, i feel like i want to make them proud by saving money, and gifting them something big when i visit them next! Saving money is a huge issue for me, and i think i should cut down on that for good. * Taking a big trip somewhere for a week or two, I think trips (the one's that you don't have drive a million miles for) are necessary for even someone like me, all we do is get stressed and through getting stressed we tend to get really frustrated, the trip helps us a lot without worrying about anything and just relaxing and pampering yourself. Out of the whole year, a nice calm trip for a week or two is necessary from the year of 2009. * Volunteering is something i want to be more in, I volunteered a 100 hours during the summer of 2006 and i think it wasn't that helpful, I think hands down, getting dirty, helping someone who really is in need volunteering is what i am looking for. Since i have only 3 days of school this next spring semester, i think i would want to make use of the other days that i am pretty much doing nothing! That is something i have been wanting to do for a while, and i hope i stick to it, and not change or forget my plans! * And last but not the very least, I want to learn cooking! I think it is great timing as well since my parents are leaving and i would have no choice but to feed myself some home cooked meals..I ll be sure to take my mom's recipe jar she has had for years, even though i doubt she ll give me the original copies of her 1000 over recipes she has had since the time she has got married. But hopefully she will, and hopefully i do learn cooking, because that's something i have been wanting to learn for a while.
Happy Holidays, and a very happy new year! xxx
Its 4:00 am, and i sit in my old room, back in north Carolina! phew, thank goodness..Atlanta has been amazingly real to me, it taught me great things, really, in a way that i would appreciate things my parents would do for me knowing i can be a little spoilt brat at times! Today's blog is basically about how messy our lives can be at a certain time of our life span, but at the same time it is so true and pure. At some point I thought that, as I got older, I’d come to terms with a lot of things. I’d solve some big problems, and eventually I’d become content. It’s almost more depressing to think that the older you get, the more your problems multiply. When I’m old, I’d like to wake up in the morning and not really do anything—just be happy to exist. I’d like to look at my accomplishments and sit back and revel in my own achievement. At this point in my life, I find myself obsessed with alternate paths I could’ve taken. I don’t think about this with a sense of regret, but with a sense of wonder—I wonder if all the moves i have been taking are going to be very worth it at the end, i wonder if the company that i am in will make me a better person at the end, in general wondering if this life can be lead without any single regret! Life takes a beautiful toll when it leads us to such beautiful company of people, my two amazing best friends, my one amazing more than just a best friend, my family, my friends, i even give credit to acquantices i have had throughout my life, You talk to them you hang out with them, but as soon as you leave, you forget who they are, thier personalities, thier faces sometimes as well..All of the ones that i stated are the ones that lead you to your past, present and the ideas of your future.. And i am grateful to have each and every single person i have in my life. There are rarely one-two people i talk to because of some bad incidents that took place, but i am still thankful to them, knowing they taught me so much for being a better person..I find it very hard to accept the wonderful things in my life. My life really is great: I do exactly what I want and rarely have any regrets. People in your life come and go. As you go through your life, you make friendships, you break friendships, you have relationships.Music,painting, and writting my heart out are the three things I’ve always been able to rely on. So why wouldn’t it be the most important thing in my life?
I thought i would start off with saying that i am totally in love with this season's colors! My favorite colors of the season are silvery-blues, and soft creamy whites and not to forget my favorite black and white combos..
The holidays are here, and it seems all so perfect! My neighbor has this unusual wreath, and it was really interesting how she made it out of everyday {edible} objects such as artichokes,Brussels sprouts and fallen apples that, after careful arrangement, become anything but ordinary and add a charming twist to the festive red and green tradition!I have been coming across many lovely festive ideas for the holiday celebrations, but by far one of my favoritest {I love that word, dont know if that really is a word or no} Is chilling champagne by the candle lights, It feels sparkly and warm, just like the holidays make us feel!
Since i have the world's two best friends..Today i wanted to make this blog about them..I figured out some great gift idea's for them since they are the first one's to bring ben and jerry's or freshly baked cookies when i have had bad days, or the first to celebrate the perfect pair of shoes, or the perfect boyfriend, or the perfect grades! Its the holidays, and everyone wonders what they should give thier best friends something small, but yet so meaningful .. I came up with some ideas like..
* A pretty ring, I should have a similar one, it would be like a wedding ring, but only for my bff's, and it shows that the friendship is going to last until the very end of us!
* A pair of cashmere gloves and scarf, Both luxurious and practical, they make the cold a little easier to bear.
* A cute pink stocking with little fun gifts that are meaningful or gifts that have something connected to an inside joke we know! Also, I don't think i want to make a big deal about moving back to north Carolina, But I am ecstatic of going back home and just being happy like i used to be! Hopefully the new year has lots and lots of joy and happiness in store for me!
PS: 19 more days until 2009 babyy!Hugs and kisses xxx
Hello December!You look just as pretty as I remember.Today I feel like I have taken my first deep breath in months... it feels good to exhale again.Whenever winter arrives it makes me feel alive, I want to taste the snow, i want to taste the love in the air! Also, when December arrives, i have a feeling of wearing soft colors and abstract shapes, those small details of white, black and gold, the colors of marigold and magenta and not to forget the electric blue that creates sparks wherever i go! As i am writting this after a long time now, i have to mention that there is supposedly a certain someone else in my rollercoaster life.. He came in my life about an year ago-(Wow!Its been more than a year since i have blogged) .. Absolutely a spectacular boy, his smile makes me smile, This year had been a crazy rollercoaster of ups and downs, and hes been there for me through it every single day, every single hour of it..It was so casual before, when it had all just started, i started talking to him about an year ago, and we started off by being just friends, he was still the most wonderful guy i had ever talked to , so caring, so gentle, so careful, and yet so funny and goofy at the same time! Its been said that whenever you do meet a guy he doesnt stay the same after you start dating him, he changes in a way, with him, hes always been true to me, always been there for me, and i think i like him more because of the fact that he has always told me if i did something right or wrong, and the fact that only he is the one i can actually listen to..I barely listen to my parents anymore, i feel so grown up :) Well anywho, Oh! his name is sagar :)- please notice the smiley as soon as i said his name! We started dating june 24th, and i was so happy! He made me happy, he called every morning to say good morning, if he could'nt call, he would text, he still makes me smile everytime i see him calling or texting! I feel such warmth and comfort when i am in his arms, i am relaxed and content when we are talking ( sometimes it doesnt quite go that way with me) my heart is at peace when i cuddle with him, my heart quivers everytime i touch him..i love his tender and loving touch, i get butterflies every single time i see him..Even if it means that we have had an arguement right before we meet..he makes me feel loved and appreciated, its like i have found a great joy in my awfully moody life..i adore everything he does for me! I feel so lucky to have someone life him in my life..It makes my life interesting, every single time i feel like my life is about to go downhill again..hes like a pocketful of sunshine that i never want to loose..I am thankful to so many things in my life now a days..* to have the bestest friends by my side-priya and anju!*to have a boy not just for having him for being in a relationship but having him so i have someone to talk to, someone to adore at the same time..* So happy for having a big fat family, that annoys me to death but at the same time, will always be there for me no matter what i do, no matter how wrong my choices will be, no matter how much i want them to leave, they will never leave..* So thankful for whoever made the whole concept of having hot chocolate when you are extremely cold, and freezing in a room where the heater isnt quite working as it should be! * for people that are thankful for every little thing i do for them! I like when people appreciate and i think that makes them feel more wanted and loved at the same time..* And lastly but not the least, for moving to atlanta and thinking it was the right place for me, but it isnt, but you know what? I learned that i can be alone, i can survive, even though i did complain more than i really should have, met some really nice people, and realized that even if you dont know people, they do really care about you! ...More to come..kisses xx
